First Time I Saw You:
I need to preface this by reminding some and informing others of you who may read anything I write, that I normally begin with a Free-Write; free-associating, and exploring thoughts and ideas with little to no filter. I write in a voice that is very detached from feelings sometimes, cause I’m really just exploring objectively and philosophically. Please try not to read my words as anything else.
The First Time I Saw You Saw Me See You See Me
You said, the first time you saw me, “you knew.” What is this that you “knew?” People often say this referring to having known the outcome of something previously. I fear if it’s not something quantifiable, and just based on ‘feeling,’ that it could be wrong. In the context of a relationship, IF a couple didn’t stay together,… what exactly did they think they knew? That they wouldn’t be together? I could be wrong, but I wouldn’t imagine that to be the common case. Does that mean it’s not true? When someone says, they “knew,” is it only true for when it IS, conveniently, true, but otherwise really just not true and based on nothing reliable? Is it then just something someone comes up with to add significance and meaning to something, to make it ‘romantic,’ but in reality, they never “knew” anything at all? Continue reading The First Time I Saw You, You Knew
Sometimes, we have to be “friends” with strangers.
As business people, as actors, or if you need help with something, or sell anything, networking is a skill we all need. In a setting where we can mingle and network we try to connect to people who are strangers. It’s almost like going into an audition, or in any place where you want people to like you, so you’re careful, and self-conscious. Sometimes it could be harder because of the setting. If it’s at a party, it could be loud AND there could be a lot of other people vying for each other’s attention. I try to look at it as an exercise in trying to be as open and comfortable as possible, so I can truly be myself, considering the circumstances. Continue reading Networking, Preparing to Act & Other Strangers With Friends
When we think of ‘Make Believe,’ we normally associate it with childhood, playing ‘make-believe,’ where we pretend to be something, or do something.
‘Make believe’ can be a very powerful tool.
Actors, and those who use the power of ‘belief’ use “make-believe” all the time to ‘become’ something, or to ‘believe’ something about themselves or the world they live in.
But in reality, everyone, in some form, as adults, still play make-believe in their every day lives as a way of coping with life.
Sometimes it’s productive, and sometimes it’s just denial and avoidance; plain ‘ol lying to ourselves. ‘Make believe’ is an important tool for everyone. Continue reading Create Belief
Sometime growing up, I got the idea that in a past life I was a white woman with a white dress and brown hair who jumped off a cliff to her death. How do you remember something like that? I’m sure over time I’ve embellished what I think I remember. It was a cliff into fog, which I imagined had water past it. I think it was also cloudy, overcast, and it was rocky, with some overgrown grass. The wind, blowing my hair. Misty rain. I’m not sure if I saw that in a dream, or saw it in a movie and remembered it as myself. I used to tell people that’s why I’m afraid of heights, when it came to roller coasters, which now I’m not even sure is true. I think it was more that I disliked the feeling in my gut when falling.
I’m not sure what to believe, but I think I believe in everything and anything. I don’t want to rule any possibility out. Life after death as reincarnation or life after death in the afterlife. Continue reading Life After Death Ft. Story Concept for “The Afterdeath”
What is dwelling.
In the dictionary, for the meaning I’m referring to it says:
– to live or continue in a given condition or state
– to linger over, emphasize, or ponder in thought, speech, or writing
I usually think of dwelling as negative. It implies obsessively thinking about something that won’t change anything and for no good practical reason other than to satisfy our need to beat ourselves up, which is counterproductive. I’ve always said, the world has more than enough people bringing us down, for us to be doing it to ourselves. We don’t need it,… but apparently we DO need it.
Do we need to rehash thoughts and memories, to beat ourselves up? To prove to ourselves over and over why we were wrong in one way or the other.
Continue reading Dwelling – Don’t Over Think It