To: Carl in 2014
From: Carl 10 years in the future:
Carl! CARL! It’s Carl from the future. 10 years in the future, 2014. You’re 28 now and graduating college, 2004!! Time to get the hell out of CT! Time to wake up! Break up with Mike, fuck trying to get a real job, save that money, call um, Fran, … WAIT WAIT! CARL, we just landed a commercial directed by Martin Scorsese!! YES! We did! Sorry, I just got the call! See,.. it may take time, but you’re gonna be doing things. Let hope I can move you along and cut out the crap you don’t need. Oh, speaking of Scorsese, we also did a film he executive produced, and it’s coming out in Oct! It took us 10 years to finally get some legit work. Continue reading Letter to myself 10 years ago/10 years from now
Where I’ve Been ….
A while back, I talked about how after shooting “Revenge of the Green Dragons” that I stopped doing the regular “work” I normally did for money, and only did commercial background work as I pursued acting more. This was an experiment to see what else I can do, and if I could survive without the work I normally did and only pursue legit acting work. I finally finished my reel. I started coaching actor friends. I made a point to always hire a coach for every legit audition. I made a postcard that I sent out, started my website, and I got a new agent! My goal was to land some more legit work by the end of the year. Continue reading Where I’ve Been Waiting To Be [Once Upon a …..]
FOR WORK & PLAY
Time Out, Excluded
I’m pretty aware and sensitive to the inclusion and exclusion of those within groups. I guess, I’ve had my share of time feeling ‘out,’ or excluded. I always felt like an outsider, misunderstood, or that I didn’t fit in. I guess knowing how it felt to feel excluded, I secretly championed inclusiveness. Or maybe I was just bored.
Time spent Out
Growing up, I often felt like I was wasting my time a lot, especially when going out or hanging out with friends. That sounds horrible, but it’s how I felt. I think often it’s because I was bored. Maybe they weren’t doing anything I wanted to do. Sometimes, it just felt like time was dragging on really slowly, I was so bored. I remember hating it, and beating myself up afterwards for having put myself through it, deeming it a huge waste of my time. I’m not sure why, but I’ve always wanted to be productive. I remember getting annoyed that my family would want to go away on vacation, cause what would I be able to do there to advance my career goals. Continue reading Time Out, for Work, for Play & of the Closet