Where I’ve Been ….
A while back, I talked about how after shooting “Revenge of the Green Dragons” that I stopped doing the regular “work” I normally did for money, and only did commercial background work as I pursued acting more. This was an experiment to see what else I can do, and if I could survive without the work I normally did and only pursue legit acting work. I finally finished my reel. I started coaching actor friends. I made a point to always hire a coach for every legit audition. I made a postcard that I sent out, started my website, and I got a new agent! My goal was to land some more legit work by the end of the year. Continue reading Where I’ve Been Waiting To Be [Once Upon a …..]
FOR WORK & PLAY
Time Out, Excluded
I’m pretty aware and sensitive to the inclusion and exclusion of those within groups. I guess, I’ve had my share of time feeling ‘out,’ or excluded. I always felt like an outsider, misunderstood, or that I didn’t fit in. I guess knowing how it felt to feel excluded, I secretly championed inclusiveness. Or maybe I was just bored.
Time spent Out
Growing up, I often felt like I was wasting my time a lot, especially when going out or hanging out with friends. That sounds horrible, but it’s how I felt. I think often it’s because I was bored. Maybe they weren’t doing anything I wanted to do. Sometimes, it just felt like time was dragging on really slowly, I was so bored. I remember hating it, and beating myself up afterwards for having put myself through it, deeming it a huge waste of my time. I’m not sure why, but I’ve always wanted to be productive. I remember getting annoyed that my family would want to go away on vacation, cause what would I be able to do there to advance my career goals. Continue reading Time Out, for Work, for Play & of the Closet
What is dwelling.
In the dictionary, for the meaning I’m referring to it says:
– to live or continue in a given condition or state
– to linger over, emphasize, or ponder in thought, speech, or writing
I usually think of dwelling as negative. It implies obsessively thinking about something that won’t change anything and for no good practical reason other than to satisfy our need to beat ourselves up, which is counterproductive. I’ve always said, the world has more than enough people bringing us down, for us to be doing it to ourselves. We don’t need it,… but apparently we DO need it.
Do we need to rehash thoughts and memories, to beat ourselves up? To prove to ourselves over and over why we were wrong in one way or the other.